Saturday, July 31, 2004

I'm single again
-by Sarah Leung

Yeah.. my friends, i had a boyfriend a week ago but that's the past now. It's really not easy (if u know what i mean). We went seperate ways last night, hopefully a better way. It's just about choices in life that u have to decide cos no one will tell u what to do. U live your life. Give me sometime to get on with life.

Sunday, July 25, 2004

I made a sudden turn in my life
-by Sarah Leung

This few days have been fanatical! It's a great change for me. Within just days, I know how hard this is going to be. And it's just the beginning. I'm very certain that this realtionship is not going to be smooth sailing. But that's just life right? I told myself, no matter what the outcome would be, I'll not regret. There will be much more changes and truth that i have to face. But i'm glad it happened, at least i could still hold on to "fairy-tales" for a while. I'm having a hard time but i'll not fall. That's me. My dear friends, Please give me your blessings! Peace.

Sunday, July 18, 2004

What do u do, when u don’t know what to do?

Haha! It’s a little confusing right? Let say, u know u r, most likely, falling for someone. (U know!) it’s not going to work but u just can’t get away from it. It’s hanging on your neck everywhere u go. U can’t breath. One thing for sure, if u don’t leave now, you will be terribly hurt. U have had enough of pain. U tried to stay away from love that might cost you pain, much pain. God knows y! u were thrown into this shit. (that’s when u should left, if not) It will led u deeper and then finally u think the “fairy-tale” is going to happen to me~ u were too naïve to believe that nonsense. As soon as u know it, it’s time for u to make your exit, for someone to take over you. But u couldn’t move! u r in too deep to jump out. U have no choice now, he has no room for u. U couldn’t stay anymore. It’s cruel but very realistic. So u cry, scream and vent anger on everyone including yourself. Ironically, (anger) that’s the only motivation u r left with. After a try and another, u never stops waking up… Each go, u used all your energy and pride to drag yourself slowly out of this shit. It’s a very very slow journey as each time u jump, u will cut yourself. It keeps cutting on the same wound and it just gets deeper and deeper that blood gush out. There’s no way to mend this wound now, u are still jumping, cutting and bleeding. After a big struggle, u finally touches the ground. By then u are so tired, so tired that u keep your eyes closed. U just want to catch your breathe. Things seems much simpler now that u r half out. U closed your eyes to sleep, the pain… the wound… is all coming back and it’s aching so much that u regret doing it to yourself! No pain, no gain. The sun rise and set and when u finally rested enough, u open your eyes and see yourself in a different time space. U blames yourself for missing out so much! Sitting on the ground you look back into the hole u have fallen into. “My gosh!”. You swear not to fall into a hole ever again. Once bitten, twice shy. Bring your weak soul, you stood up and make your first step into this new time zone. This time round, you walk the road very carefully, noting every turn n winding road. U stop frequently, more frequent than your heartbeats. In your mind…“No! don’t step into a hole again”
But can u do it?

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

An E-mail from my Dad
-by Sarah Leung

A group of children were playing near two railway tracks, one still in use while the other disused. Only one child played on the disused track, the rest on the operational track.

The train came, and you were just beside the track interchange. You could make the train change its course to the disused track and saved most of the kids. However, that would also mean the lone child playing by the disused track would be sacrificed. Or would you rather let the
train go its way?

Let's take a pause to think what kind of decision we could make.............

How do you decide?
No cheating...
What is your decision?

Most people might choose to divert the course of the train, and sacrifice only one child. You might think the same way, I guess.

Exactly, I thought the same way initially because to save most of the children at the expense of only one child was rational decision most people would make, morally and emotionally. But, have you ever thought that the child choosing to play on the disused track had in fact made the right decision to play at a safe place? Nevertheless, he had to be sacrificed because of his ignorant friends who chose to play where the danger was.

This kind of dilemma happens around us everyday. In the office, community, in politics and especially in a democratic society, the minority is often sacrificed for the interest of the majority, no matter how foolish or ignorant the majority is, and how farsighted and knowledgeable the minority is. The child who chose not to play with the rest on the operational track was sidelined. And in the case he was sacrificed, no one would shed a tear for him.

The friend who forwarded me the story said he would not try to change the course of the train because he believed that the kids playing on the operational track should have known very well that track was still in use and that they should have run away if they heard the train's sirens. If the train was diverted, that lone child would definitely die because he never thought the train could come over to that track!

Moreover, that track was not in use probably because it was not safe.
If the train was diverted to the track, we could put the lives of all passengers on board at stake! And in your attempt to save a few kids by sacrificing one child, you might end up sacrificing hundreds of people to save these few kids.

While we are all aware that life is full of tough decisions that need to be made, we may not realize that hasty decisions may not always be the right one.

"Remember that what's right isn't always popular... and what's popular isn't always right."

Everybody makes mistakes; that's why they put erasers on pencils.